Throw Like A Girl is a quest (and a documentary film) to discover why American girls are shut out of our National Pastime. Using my unrequited baseball love story to connect three generations: the ladies from the All-American Girls Professional Baseball League, Team USA’s current women’s National Team, and the 8 to 13-year-old girls who are still fighting for their spot on the diamond.
My father has been attending the Red Sox Baseball Fantasy Camp for several years, and it makes him happier than anything. He inspired me, so much so, that I decided to go and revel in all the wonders of this redemptive experience myself.
Only…it didn’t work out that way for me.
It turns out that even in 2005, baseball is still a big ol’ Boys club, and while the “No Girlz Allowed” sign might be slightly obscured, it is still hanging right there on the clubhouse. My experience wasn’t the magical fantasy I had come to expect. There were 95 male campers, 22 male coaches (retired professional players), 3 male trainers, 2 male camp directors, and me.
70 innings of baseball were played over the week by each team, and I was on the field for only 5. They let everyone bat every game, but I was always hitting in the 12th or 13th spot, so I would get 2 maybe 3 at bats per game. At the closing banquet, my team’s Manager approached me and said, “I know you didn’t play as much as you probably wanted to, but the guys really wanted to win.”
I went to Camp seeking a connection; that unique feeling that only comes from being part of a team like my father described. I had dreamed of being a winner, of being valuable to my teammates, of being part of something larger than myself. The Camp Director gave me access to film on site because he was hoping to attract more women to the Camp. Afterwards I thought, “Well, what I shot certainly isn’t going to help with that.” I was also disheartened because I didn’t want to make a film about the misogynistic culture of baseball, and I still don’t. So I set out on a journey to find other women like me and tell our stories.
While this film is still under construction, my intention is to intercut my first person Fantasy Camp experience with the stories of Team USA, our Women’s National Team and the All-American Girls Professional Baseball League, the women who played during WWII, and the girls as young as 8 still fighting for their spot on the diamond. The film will have a strong call to action determined to address gender inequity in sport, and show the resulting impact on our society as a whole.